Thought i'd give you all (that sounds funny seeing as no one is following my blog!) future readers a bit of history on my journey.
Ok, so I had my surgety on the 28th July 2010. The heaviest I have been - few grams shy of 118 kgs. I lost a couple of kilo's prior to meeting with my surgeon and then managed about 5 kilos on the Optifast pre-op diet. On the day of banding I weighed in at 112kgs. In the 3 1/2 months I've been banded I have only lost 3kgs! I have a swedish lap band which holds 10ml and currently my fill is at 7ml.
I don't understand what is going on? I hardly feel restriction and have never suffered any of the side effects I have read about. I'm really scared that I'll have the maximum fill and there will still be no change?! I feel mighty frustrated and totally uninspired. I go to see my surgeon next week - this will be my 4th fill - hopefully this does the trick - gives me the restriction I need which in turn will motivate me to stay focused....
my turn
Banded late July '10... this is my frustrating and very confusing journey.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Taking the Plunge
I took the plunge after careful and long consideration and had lap band surgery back in July 2010... I'm not exactly sure how I feel about it just yet. I feel that my journey so far has been frustrating and nothing like those of the blogs I have been following over the past 2 and a bit years.
I suppose I'm here because after all this time I'm at my wits end and have to admit that I need help. I need the help to stay focused and motivated in this journey I set out for myself. I feel like nothing but a failure, yet again! I can't tell you how many times I have started something (weight wise) and never seen it through. I don't know what the bloody hell is wrong with me? Why do I keep putting it into the too hard basket???
I suppose I'm here because after all this time I'm at my wits end and have to admit that I need help. I need the help to stay focused and motivated in this journey I set out for myself. I feel like nothing but a failure, yet again! I can't tell you how many times I have started something (weight wise) and never seen it through. I don't know what the bloody hell is wrong with me? Why do I keep putting it into the too hard basket???
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